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Transparency & Vulnerability
by Karin Paparelli

Transparent; permitting distinct vision through a solid substance, easily understood. To be vulnerable is to be susceptible of being wounded, or assaulted. To expose oneself to possible harm. To be free of protective coverings. What does this mean to the Christian?

A few years ago I was asked to speak at a women's dinner. I was to give a testimony. A week before I was due to speak the Lord revealed what He wanted me to speak on. It was a testimony that I had never shared publicly before. It was a testimony that once spoken would put me in a position of vulnerability. I was not sure of how I would be received yet I knew that was the message I needed to share. I was obedient to the Lord and everything went well. The Lord ministered to many hurt women at that dinner and His purpose was served. And I was set free even more than before! It was at that time that the Lord told me I would need to be transparent in ministry. If I wanted Him to move freely, to move in power and to liberate the captives I myself would need to be completely willing to be exposed. This is something He has revealed to me in many different circumstances regarding many different issues. Each time He reinforces the need for me to be real, to be true.

And "They (the saints) overcame him (the enemy) by the blood of the Lamb, and the word of their testimony...". There is so much power in the words of our testimonies, but we need to be real. We shouldn't be ashamed of what we've been delivered from but rather rejoice and give God glory! Every weakness of ours becomes another opportunity for God to be glorified in our lives. But who wants to share their weaknesses? Who wants to talk about what they were like before redemption? Who wants to admit to the sins that held you in a stranglehold? Most of us would just as soon go on our ways never again to discuss or even think of where we've come from. But there is power in the words of our testimony. Power to set others free from similar situations. Power to overcome the enemy!

It requires transparency and vulnerability. You must be willing to let people see you, all of you, warts and all. Not just the shining moments but the pit too. Are you willing to reveal the dark places in your heart? Do you even acknowledge that they exist? Are you secure enough in knowing who you are now in Christ to become vulnerable for the sake of another? Or does Satan keep you bound with the fear of rejection?

Every time I am asked to speak the Lord reminds me to let others see what is real. To share my failures and frustrations not just my victories. To open myself up to criticism and even condemnation for His name sake. When I surrendered my life to Jesus I meant it. All of it. Now not everyone will be asked to share the things I have shared in a public arena. I know that I have been called to a public ministry. I have always been a public person and the Lord designed me that way to boldly proclaim the wonders of God. But even within our intimate relationships we hold back, when we should share. The reason is simple, fear. We are fearful of being hurt, rejected, misunderstood. Our concerns are real, but what can we do about it?

Jesus died to set us free. The word of God says that He whom the Son sets free is free indeed. Free from the fear of man. Free from the fear of rejection. Free from past hurts. Free from all that would hinder your walk with God and your relationships to one another. All you have to do is to confess to the Lord you sin. Yes I said sin. You are in sin when you regard man higher than God. You regard man higher than God when out of fear of man you do not accept your freedom in Christ and choose to be healed from your past. Hey, I'm sympathetic to your pain. I understand that old wounds may be so camouflaged after years of denial that you may not even realize they are still there. Go to the Lord in prayer and with an honest heart ask the Holy Spirit to reveal any past wounds which have remained hidden. It is these hidden wounds which fester and become roots of bitterness, resentment, anger and fear. When Christ shines His light on those places the darkness is dispelled. And once you are healed you can't help but share the good news with the world!

It is time for the Church to rise up in Healing and Victory. To truly proclaim the goodness of our King! To Expose the lies of the enemy and to overcome him with the words of our testimonies! Are you willing to be vulnerable for the sake of another? For the sake of the Kingdom of God? For the sake of Christ? Remember Jesus left all the Glory of Heaven and came to us in the form of a defenseless babe, completely dependant upon a teenager in humblest of circumstances. Stripped naked, beat, spat upon, crucified with thieves. And even when it had appeared that all was lost and He breathed His last breath, when people mocked Him and rejected Him still He stayed focus on bringing His Father glory and fulfilling His purpose. Vulnerable? You bet, but His testimony of death and resurrection has brought us all life! Thy Kingdom Come! May you walk in His grace.

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